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Published: 2004-02-23 23:52:01 +0000 UTC; Views: 1674; Favourites: 30; Downloads: 134
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Oookay, I had a nice long description typed up about four minutes ago, but my connection decided to fail right as I clicked 'continue'...I just want those of you who look at this to know that this is not how I really feel about my body - it's how I used to feel, a looong time ago. I decided to express my feelings on this for an art submission to the summer art college program. I know that the composition could be better, as could the colors, but this shot is supposed to look somewhat candid. Eating disorders aren't beautiful, anyway. They're a living hell
This picture isn't supposed to turn you on to them, it's supposed to turn you off, cos they suck 
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This is a very nice shot, with lots of emotion and meaning.
I hope you are still doing well. I know how hard it is to not give in again..
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im in that boat myself..
u did a wonderful job
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one of my ex girlfriends is bullemic... to bad she didn't believe me when i tried to convince her not care that much about her weight... such difficult situation..when a girl thinks she can achieve anything if she looks perfect... such a sad world too when it seems she was almost right.... except for one thing.. looks don't give you happyness.
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I think this is good, but the "still fat" part isn't necessary . . . everything else makes it clear what is going on. I like how you're holding the picture and the idea . . . very provoking.
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Wow....
Such an expressive piece...
I really really like this.
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I'm glad you did put a description as I would of hollered at you if I thought you thought you were fat. But yes, I know about eatting disorders of all kinds and so your message here with the description is excellent. Good job! 4 
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This picture reminds me of...me. Except, I didn't originally want to be skinny, it sorta happened by accident. However, the fact is I'm nearly 17 and I am 99 lbs. altogether, including clothing. I don't have ads to thank. I have meds. This picture, thought it almost represents the opposite of me, reminds me strongly of me. This in itself should be an ad. I'm serious.
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I myself am going through ...anorexia or whatever you want to call it...my parents want to put me in the hospital cuz i only weigh 104 pounds and Im medium framed 5'5....I look like a skeleton and proud of it! I don't do it to look good...my reason is a bit twisted... but nice pic.
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No, I totally understand that having an eating disorder isn't always about what it's portrayed as in this picture. I'm... okay with my current weight and shape and whatnot, but whenever I've wanted to turn back to anorexia it hasn't been because of weight, it's been for other reasons. Reasons like not wanting to make parents spend money on me for food because I fail at shit, and who really wants a kid who does that... or something. So I think I get what you're saying. I was extremely proud of my skeletal frame (back when I had it)... now, the only thing that really keeps me from doing it again is the fact that it took me a loooong time to get my boobs back after I did it 
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Thank you so much for your comment! Yes, Spring and Chaos was an anime movie that came out a bit ago. 'Spring and Chaos' is actually a poem by the author who that movie was about...but anyway...
About being anorexic...I was wondering, if you don't mind me asking...what made you want to gain more weight and get more healthy? The main reason as to why I want to get thinner is because, I still dont see a super skinny girl when I look into the mirror, but the sick reason I want to be sickly thin is because I want my parents to see the mental pain I am going through, I have a lot of rough emotions and anger towards my 'father' who never listens to me...among other things that I hate about him that go much deeper...so I want to make myself so grossly thin just to illistrate my pain and mental suffering to my parents, but not just them...to the people out in public as well.
Okay, Now I'M rambling...you weren't but I really am here hahaha..
Oh...Is it okay if I add you to my friend's list?
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What made me want to gain the weight, I think, was the idea that my parents were spending so much money keeping me in the hospital... had I not been in the hospital, though, I probably wouldn't have ever gotten better. If you don't really much like your parents though.. hmm...
I can tell you without looking at you that you are super skinny enough. Although that may have no impact on you, I can tell you a secret secret of mine
If you want to make your pain public.. there are a lot of other ways to do it. It's hard to find one that doesn't involve harmind yourself though, I must admit. While it was anorexia for me a couple of years ago, now it's cutting.... although now I hide that, too, so it's not really helping much. My reasons for doing it have changes, as well. If your dad is truly as ignorant towards you as he sounds, sit down and try to have a talk with him. Go ahead and cry while you talk - that's what I had to do lastnight when I talked to my dad. Just try hard not to yell and curse. I've realised that when I do that, it just makes me look kind of... senseless
And of course you can add me to your friends list! I'll add you to mine too
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Wow! You were 95 pounds?! That's the same weight I am trying to get at...I cant seem to get there though I stay around at 108 107...but Im medium framed and only 5'5...so I don't know how the hell I can get thinner...I mean here's my secret...I dont eat any fat so its all calories and its all veggie stuff.. and fat free yogurt 'ice cream'. Then, as soon as im done eating I take about 8 to 10 laxatives...everyday...it's been like that for about 3 months...I still cant seem to hit 95 pounds. I'm so frustrated...I can't make myself throw up...I tired, it's impossible for me to do that...so I take laxatives.
My diet mainly consisists of rice cakes and jam or honey, corn flakes with brown sugar, fat free ice cream/yogurt, fruit, veggie dogs, veggie burgers. That's about it...am I doing something wrong? Why the hell can't I lose more weight?
I know, I should really seek help, however I am obsessed with getting thinner. I can't starve myself for days like other anorexics...so yeah.
Thanks for your insight...any thoughts on my habits at all?
Thanks, this helps a lot.
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Ah, not eating any fat actually has this way of making you feel worse, I don't know why that is, but it is something that I've realized.. as for why you can't lose more weight, it's probably because your body doesn't want you to 
Now, about throwing up. I've tried that too, or I did when I was on my mad weight-loss spree. Didn't work for me, either, so you're not alone. Just don't bother with it, because it's actually more unhealthy than starvation, in the sense that it will rot away your teeth and esophagus to the point of them... well... eventually just not being there.
I don't much like giving advice on weight loss to anorexics, but I'd rather inform you of the relatively healthy ways to lose weight than have you doing things that will cause a lot more damage... 
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Hmmm, nope actually I'm not excersizing at all...I think if I were to do that...I would probably pass out. But thank you for your advice! ^_^
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Yo thanks! Glad you like it~
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amazing. the message you're sending is great. when i first saw it i was like " oh god, not another one of these." then i read the description and i think it's something that most girls go through in their life, and the rest something just like it - airbrushed comparisons, taping them to the insides of closet doors in secrecy, getting there, going for the goal - when it's impossible. and when you do, you're really going down.
now about the picture - the composition might be a little too bright - it makes me squint a little. the colors are gorgeous, just a little to overlayed.
overall, very nice job. again, i'm in love with the message. thank you for sharing this
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Thanks a ton, I'm glad you like it.. glad you actually clicked on it - I was actually kind of afraid that some people would comment without bothering to read the description
The colors, yeah I sort of wish I'd had more luck with those. I need something other than a desk lamp for my pictures 
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its very well done, sometimes art that means something is cooler, and this is one of those. Did you have an eating disorder? you sure dont look like it now :wink:
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Yeah, I had one for about three years and I believe it started in seventh grade... damn, it was miserable
And yeah, I try to make my art mean something, generally... but I've been at a loss for inspiration lately
Thanks for the comment!
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i like the colors a lot. its great! and the message behind it is good to... haha i know oh too well... which is probably weird to most since i'm a guy but whatever. anyway, great great job with this!
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Yeah, I haven't met too many guys who've had to deal with eating disorders - possibly because a lot e.d.'d men just won't admit it. I'd really like to hear how it was for you, though, since I've never heard about it from the male point of view
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mmhmm, i see what you are trying to portray, nicely done.
mwuah.
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This is so meaningful to me, as I've been there too. And @#%^*, Lauren, you're still so thin. You just look HEALTHY now, and it makes me so happy. :3
I still have these thoughts, I still suffer with this. I think this was a great way to convey how that mindset funcitons. Rock on, as always.
Much love
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hehe.. thanks ma'am
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so true...
I like the feeling and emotion the pic gives off....
Everyone should be like me....Eat everything...Yum...best diet i ever tried....
But seriously...i like what youve done here. Showing how people are so brain washed by media and such that theyll do anything to be like that person on the magazine or tv or whatever....very nice...
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Yeah... the media really does bug, although I don't blame eating disorders on the media as much as I blame it on that crazy human psyche 
About that diet... well, that's how I eat now, too 
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xerox paper huh....lol
my fav dessert in the world is the Black tie mouse cake at Olive garden. Its so chocolaty it can kill a horse...Its so good that even if your so full it hurts and you take a bite, your going to finish it....
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As said in the classroom: Awesome shot. Very emotional. I'm glad as well that you were able to get over that -- personally, I think you're very pretty.
Damn.
Somebody needs to stuff her face with a few cheeseburgers.
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Mmmm cheeseburgers... I haven't had one of those in forever... my brother comes home from McDonald's sometimes and they just smell soooo good
I'm glad you like the picture, too... of course, my ribs don't protrude as much as they used to, so it could have been better, but I'm not gonna stop eating just so I can make them protrude more 
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Yes, cheeseburgers are gooood.... I haven't had one in a while, either!
Muaha, I love your work! 
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Y'know, if you used Mozilla Firefox, you could have just hit "back" and everything you typed still would have been there... But that's unrelated.
Even as a thumbnail, this photo had a lot of impact. I prefer the grungy-ish colors you chose for this - it emphasizes the unhealthiness of holding yourself to the standard of some airbrushed model. I'm glad you're past that.
Very thought-provoking.
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I'm glad you like it
Now... where can I get this Firefox thing you speak of?
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[link] Click the Download Now! Button in the upper right hand corner. YOu'll have to re-download whatever plugins you use - Quicktime or Flash or whatever - but it will prompt you to do this the first time you encounter those file types.
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Me and my randomness. And my random mind is saying "+fav!" right now, so thats whats happening. Really awesome idea and really great product of the idea.
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Yeah, it's really sad when people get this obsessed with looking 'good' 
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No description is needed. You did a perfect job at describing your feelings and getting the message across. Great shot. ^~*
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Thank you!!
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