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Passin [2017-08-08 22:14:50 +0000 UTC]
That's beautiful. Yeah, he's a prime case for PTSD. I wonder how many others are like this across Meridian?
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Arts-Of-Metamoor In reply to Passin [2017-08-28 01:34:01 +0000 UTC]
Thank you so much! I think so too... And I also think that many of the other rebels and even the guardians and Elyon might suffer from various levels of PTSD as well.
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stardust-3 [2017-07-24 19:57:06 +0000 UTC]
You are probably my favorite person on devianart. (You are low key the reason I joined the site in the first place) you inspire me to create my own art lol. And that is a real compliment cause motivating me is NOT the easiest thing.
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Arts-Of-Metamoor In reply to katerinaaqu [2017-08-28 02:37:40 +0000 UTC]
Thank you so much dear!
I'm so glad you think so! Part of the reason I did this piece was to train myself to portray emotion and scenes using only body language Thank you! Anatomy is always tricky
Thank you! But I must admit it's not completely and originally my idea I've been reading a lot of fanfictions where they explore Caleb's broken mental state as a former warrior (Although all of them used Caleb's anime version and not this comic version) I really thought it was a nice idea and it really made sense, so I decided to use it as well
Exactly, most of his life was a giant endless battle, It's mostly all he knowns since his birth and is something that might accompany him even at times of peace... He must have seen the most horrible things during the war, a lot of suffering and death... he probably had his life on the line multiple times and He probably had to kill to save other people and just to survive... not an easy existence at all...
all of this combined with his existential crisis for being one of Phobos' whisperer and his depression after Diego's confinement and yeah... Keeping his sanity was probably a big struggle, but he did keep it, or at least most of it. This is a mild breakdown, he has other much more violent breakdowns where he looses his sense of place and reality completely: from firmly believing he's still in the middle of a battlefield and attacking the ones around him, to just collapsing in the ground and curl up into a crying and sobbing mess (and others, like you stated like nightmares and such).
I think I do get what you mean His imprisonment was part of his world and reality, something he grew with in a way...
I always love your analogies Yes he wants to always show his composed side in front of Cornelia, just like he wanted to always show his composed side to his men and comrades during the rebellion. He wanted to show her that his struggles were something she did not need to concern herself with, that they were not her burden, only his, but she instead shows he doesn't need to hide his "wounds" from her, that she knows they're there and that she accepts them ( If that makes sense ) And she does this in the form of this hug thus becoming, like you said, his earth and pillar to lean onto
And of course I love making Corny petite compared to a tall broad shouldered Caleb
Thank you so much dear!
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Arts-Of-Metamoor In reply to katerinaaqu [2017-08-28 21:23:33 +0000 UTC]
I'm so sorry hon !! Just came back from my family in the countryside! Being online is really a struggle there
But I missed talking to you!
Thank you so much dear
I guess you are right in the end everything is inspired by something else... I tried giving the ideas my own touch of course I'm glad you found it original, I tend to step into the "cliche territory" in my stories especially when I'm writing dialogs.
Yeah of course, Caleb's appearances in the comic were few compared to the anime where he was part of the main narrative. I agree I also didn't understand why Caleb didn't play a bigger part in the narrative if he played such an important role... The writers instead focused in other parts of the plot. I think they wanted to explain a lot of things at the same time and in the end they ended up not explaining enough. And yeas the audience of the comic were young girls.
I would love to see comic Caleb in the middle of an actual battle or managing the rebellion like his anime counterpart did...
I undertand That's why I'm turning to the anime a little more as well.
Yeah and maybe knowing he was at some point a full whisperer, he feels he contributed to Phobos' tyranny somehow.
I think he did kill people even as a rebel leader... I believed he tried not to, but there were times he simply had to do it for the greater good and that might haunt him (even if the ones killed were enemies) like you said "sometimes in war things like those are unavoidable".
And yes he must have lost many comrades and watch them die right before his eyes, sometimes having to leave them behind wounded And of course that would make him feel unbearable remorse.
Maybe those abandoned comrades even appear in his nightmares telling him they wouldn't be dead if it wasn't for him leaving them behind.
Yes of course, and among other things Caleb probably also witnessed many innocents suffer and get killed, He always tried his best to help all of those he came across but it's just impossible to save everybody.
And of course as an ambassador of Kandrakar he still is wielding a sword.
Yeah what hurt the most for Caleb was not the imprisonment, but the fact that it was Diego the one to do it...
Am I going too far with his breakdowns ? You know it ! Its "GO HARD OR GO HOME!! " with me
His breakdowns are not common but they are not "rare" either, they mostly happen now and then when something triggers them. Like a memory or something he sees that reminds him of a trauma.
I even have this idea that Caleb has this recurring\repeated nightmare of a memory when he witnessed a child die in front of him during a battle. He sometimes is afraid of sleeping because of this nightmare... too much??
He gets a lot better over time with Cornelia's and the other's support... but there will always be a scar .
Speaking of Cornelia and the others I also think the guardians and even Elyon have some form of trauma or post-traumatic disorder like shell shock... they seen some stuff as well after all.
Yeah he mostly wants to seem strong for her... In my story, at the beginning, Caleb has the bad habit of seeing Cornelia as a delicate breakable being, even though she's a guardian, and he instinctively wants to protect her at all times... Tho he later finds outs that's far from the truth and she's actually a pretty though and fierce warrior.
And yes he must see his inner demons and trauma as something shameful and it's an insecurity to him, and it's difficult to express it to Cornelia at first...
Oh boy... all the characters of this story are broken messes Poor Caleb...
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Sophiecinders14 [2017-06-19 20:25:25 +0000 UTC]
This is such a beautiful piece, not just in it's physical form but emotionally too
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KatyaSunshine [2017-06-18 00:17:50 +0000 UTC]
It's a masterpiece, I feel lack of words...
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DragonGirl207 [2017-06-14 21:41:53 +0000 UTC]
They've seen some stuff.
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Walaira [2017-06-14 13:39:11 +0000 UTC]
This looks so sad and touching T.T . Also i approve that you showed Caleb's scarred and torn up personality because of all that stuff that he had to endure . I like so much that your comics cover up some serious story plotholes. Awesome facial expressions and body language, keep u the good work .
+ it kinda reminds me how i met my very long distance bf 2nd time (except the fact that I was the one crying).
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Walaira In reply to Arts-Of-Metamoor [2017-06-19 08:09:51 +0000 UTC]
That's right, I believe they all should have some sort of trauma from things they've seen in Meridian . They saw outbreak of civil war basically, people dying, houses being burned,... etc.
But i think that Caleb is especially scarred, he had to lead a freaking rebellion and he had to give orders and he new he had to send some of his fellow rebels for basically suicide missions so the others may live. Imagine what that would do with one's spirit even if he fought all his life. For sure there are thoughts of his fallen comrades haunting him all night. And there is certain guardian who can feel the pain of all living things because her power is earth , so it would make perfect sense that she is maybe the only one who can truly understand his pain. That's why his character feels so hollow in the comics.
Also i believe all of the girls must have trauma to certain degree, but much weaker than Caleb (he has severe PSTD).
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ZarahX [2017-06-14 06:05:03 +0000 UTC]
So endearing! I don't find many fan depiction of Caleb like this. I'm interested in seeing how you'll tackle these ideas about post-war/combat mental disorders! ^^ I wish you luck with the rest of your story!
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Velnna [2017-06-14 02:57:06 +0000 UTC]
Yeeeeesss gimme that angst
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HELLVANE [2017-06-14 01:43:45 +0000 UTC]
That moment when i hug mean so much to you.
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BrickercupMasterX3 [2017-06-14 01:39:32 +0000 UTC]
This is so emotional and pretty!
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