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I'm feeling dizzy
My brain is spinning
Open my eyes to see a room of white
Four padded walls
A padded floor
A bright light above my head
The room is so white, it's almost blinding
I'm sitting on the floor
I try to stand but I can't use my arms for support
I'm in a straight jacket that's as bleach white as the room
I'm starting to freak out
A little camera on the wall seems to zoom in on me
I start to crawl on my knees to it
Maybe someone on the outside can help me
The door is opened by a man in a white jacket
He tells me he's a doctor and he's going to help me
I'm over joyed
He first asks me if I remember anything
Strange... I don't
He starts writing things on his clipboard
Next he asks for my name
Again I draw a blank
The doctor seems sad
He starts taking me out of the room
I see long hallways with many doors
I hear people crying
People screaming
I start to want to go back to the room
But before I could finish my thoughts I enter a new room
There are some people dressed like me here
There are people in blue outfits too
Tall windows with sunlight shining in
I'm feeling so warm
The doctor then turns me to a group of people at a table
He says that they are my family and friends
Do I really know these people?
An older woman gets up to hug me but is stopped by the doctor
They tell me they love me
All I can do is nod
The doctor tells them something
The women start crying
The men show pain
I ask them why?
Why are they sad?
They cry even more
I don't understand
They show me pictures
They play me movies
They show me my life up until now
But I still don't remember most of that
They tell me I'm here because I went nuts
I don't remember that
The doctor tells me I'll never be able to leave this place
Why?
What did I do?
These people go crying and telling me that they will miss me
I tell them to visit often
They cry more
The doctor leads me into another room
He tells me I'm to unstable for the outside world
To unstable to even be here
I'm unstable?
How?
He tells me I've killed people
I didn't remember that
Till now
He has strapped me to a gurney
I fight and struggle
I see a needle in his hand
It all lead up to this moment
I feel the needle go inside my flesh and scream
I don't want to die yet
My vision blacks out
I feel cold and light
I see a fresh grave
The headstone with my name on it
People crying
And a little girl
She's crying the most
Why?
The little girl says,"Thank you for saving my life."
I remember now
She was going to be killed by...
... I don't remember
But I do remember screams and blood
Lots of blood
And her
Darkness
I see a light calling me
I feel dizzy
I see white
I'm back in my solitude

Description
I'm feeling dizzy
My brain is spinning
Open my eyes to see a room of white
Four padded walls
A padded floor
A bright light above my head
The room is so white, it's almost blinding
I'm sitting on the floor
I try to stand but I can't use my arms for support
I'm in a straight jacket that's as bleach white as the room
I'm starting to freak out
A little camera on the wall seems to zoom in on me
I start to crawl on my knees to it
Maybe someone on the outside can help me
The door is opened by a man in a white jacket
He tells me he's a doctor and he's going to help me
I'm over joyed
He first asks me if I remember anything
Strange... I don't
He starts writing things on his clipboard
Next he asks for my name
Again I draw a blank
The doctor seems sad
He starts taking me out of the room
I see long hallways with many doors
I hear people crying
People screaming
I start to want to go back to the room
But before I could finish my thoughts I enter a new room
There are some people dressed like me here
There are people in blue outfits too
Tall windows with sunlight shining in
I'm feeling so warm
The doctor then turns me to a group of people at a table
He says that they are my family and friends
Do I really know these people?
An older woman gets up to hug me but is stopped by the doctor
They tell me they love me
All I can do is nod
The doctor tells them something
The women start crying
The men show pain
I ask them why?
Why are they sad?
They cry even more
I don't understand
They show me pictures
They play me movies
They show me my life up until now
But I still don't remember most of that
They tell me I'm here because I went nuts
I don't remember that
The doctor tells me I'll never be able to leave this place
Why?
What did I do?
These people go crying and telling me that they will miss me
I tell them to visit often
They cry more
The doctor leads me into another room
He tells me I'm to unstable for the outside world
To unstable to even be here
I'm unstable?
How?
He tells me I've killed people
I didn't remember that
Till now
He has strapped me to a gurney
I fight and struggle
I see a needle in his hand
It all lead up to this moment
I feel the needle go inside my flesh and scream
I don't want to die yet
My vision blacks out
I feel cold and light
I see a fresh grave
The headstone with my name on it
People crying
And a little girl
She's crying the most
Why?
The little girl says,"Thank you for saving my life."
I remember now
She was going to be killed by...
... I don't remember
But I do remember screams and blood
Lots of blood
And her
Darkness
I see a light calling me
I feel dizzy
I see white
I'm back in my solitude