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Since Tuesday's dilemma with Roxas backing down, he hasn't made a single move on me. I'm starting to think he really is tired of me. He usually jumps me every time we're alone together in the same room. I didn't understand what he was thinking.

"Oh God. We're finally done." Roxas flopped down on the couch and stretched out his limbs. I put the last of his math homework in his folder.

We had spent all of our free time working nonstop to finish his assignments all week. It was now Sunday afternoon and we were just finishing. We had split up the work evenly between the two of us and it seemed to really work out in the end.

"It wasn't all that bad. But I am glad that we finished." I pulled myself up from my sitting position on the ground and took a seat next to Roxas on the couch. He was leaning back with his eyes closed and his arm behind his head, a relaxed look on his face. I studied him close and noticed my fingers twitching with the need to touch his hand.

I inched my hand closer towards his but stopped before I could make physical contact with him. Almost as if Roxas could read my mind, his hand grabbed mine and intertwined his fingers with mine. I blushed even though I couldn't be seen by him. The familiar tingling sensation spread from my hand to the rest of my body.

"Roxas. Can I ask you something?" His thumb started to caress mine with soothing strokes.

"Mhm."

"Umm… Is it because I'm not a virgin anymore?"

Roxas immediately sat up and turned his body towards me, his eyes snapped opened. His hand squeezed mine as he gave me a puzzled expression. I blushed instantly and looked away, ashamed I had even brought up the topic. I didn't really want to know the answer.

"Zexion. What did they do to you?" His voice was harsh with no emotion as his eyes searched desperately for a notion hidden on my face.

"His umm… in my mouth…" I wanted to pull my hand away from Roxas when I felt him squeeze it even tighter. I wasn't fully aware that Roxas had no idea what happened that day other than the violence. I had no idea what his reaction would be.

He grabbed my jaw with his free hand and I flinched at the slight pain that developed. His thumb and forefinger pressed roughly into my cheeks, prying my jaw open and forcing my teeth to prod against the inside of my cheeks.

"His dirty cock? In my Angel's mouth?" He leaned forward and plunged his tongue into my open mouth. He released his grip on my chin and chose to place his hand soothingly on his cheek.

I shuddered at the tingling feeling that developed through my body. His hand that was holding mine gave gentle, consoling squeezes. Our tongues danced with each other and explored each other's mouths with confidence.

He sucked, nipped, and licked until I was moaning and grabbing on to his shoulders. I could feel the pressure start to build and my hips started to involuntarily rock back and forth against the couch.

Roxas broke the kiss, leaving me gasping for air. He continued to place kisses across my cheek, down my neck, and along the exposed part of my chest. I ran my hands from his shoulders into his hair and grabbed a hand full of his mane like hair.

He tasted the sweat that was beginning to form on my neck and lightly scrapped his teeth along my skin. He pulled away and my hands fell into my lap. He grabbed my hand and pulled us both off of the couch.

He led me down a familiar hallway and into his bedroom. I felt a rush of blood to my cheeks when I realized just what could happen on his bed.

He paused and turned around to look at me. "Zexion. You know I love you very much. There is nothing I wouldn't do for you. Here, sit down." He sat down on the edge of his bed and gave my hand a squeeze to encourage me to sit next to me. I was surprised he thought there was even a chance I wouldn't sit down next to him. I gave him a smile and sat down to his right.

"Sometimes I just don't know what to do. I want to kill him. For even just laying a hand on you, I want to kill him." He looked at me and I could see tears filling his eyes. Anger and pain were prominent and I could feel my heart sting at his welling emotions.

"Roxas, I hate to bring this kind of pain to you. You'd be better off without me; you'd be much happier. I only cause you to be upset and angry." I had to blink back tears. Now there was a possibility we could break up and thinking about going back to how I was, was enough to force me into a panic attack.

"You are such an idiot. You are the only thing that makes me as happy as I am. You have changed my life so much, Zexion."

"But…"

"Hear me out for a second. If for even a second I made you believe I was having second thoughts about you, I'm sorry. I was trying to give you a little space so you could work through everything that's happened. You have no idea how many times I had to hold myself back in the last week."

I felt my body relax and loosen all of my tense muscles. I was just overreacting and jumping to conclusions. I seemed to do that a lot when it had to do with Roxas.

I bit my bottom lip and looked down as I tried to compile the words I wanted to say to him. I wish he hadn't held back. I want him more than anything and having to know that he can't be himself around me is heartbreaking.

"Tell me what's on your mind." Roxas bent his head down slightly, trying to regain eye contact with me.

Why can he read me so easily? I never know what's going on in his mind and yet he can read me like a book. I slightly frowned at the idea. "I wish I was better at this relationship stuff. My intelligence doesn't seem to be good for it."

I heard Roxas chuckle and my head snapped towards him. "Don't worry, Zex. Experience doesn't always help with relationships. You're doing very well for your first time." He smiled at me and I couldn't hide the smile that spread across my face also.

Gathering all the courage I had, I leaned in towards Roxas and placed a soft kiss on his lips. I pulled back immediately and looked away as I felt my cheeks start to burn.

"You're full of surprises, babe." I turned to look at him, but before I could his mouth was latched onto mine. He sucked on my top lip, grating his teeth gently across it.

I placed my hand on his chest. Wanting to return the pleasure he was bringing me, I ran my thumb across his nipple over his shirt. T-That was pleasurable, right? It wasn't weird to do that… I hope.

He parted from the kiss and as soon as he did I had the instinct to run. It was definitely strange to do that. Roxas probably hated that kind of thing.

Roxas placed his limp head on my shoulder. "You're too good Zexion. I've never had to hold back this much."

"You're lying. I never know what I'm doing. There is no way I'm doing anything that you like." My kisses were sloppy, my tongue unskilled, and my hands were clumsy. I had no idea what he was talking about.
"I'll show you then."

He hands found the end of my shirt and wiggled their way onto bare skin. I gasped as they moved up to my chest and started to explore. Roxas smirked and I guessed he found what he was looking for when each of his thumbs rubbed over my nipples.

His fingers rubbed, twirled, and pinked my nipples. I couldn't hold back my moans any longer and grabbed onto Roxas's shoulders. I completely forgot the pleasure I received from Roxas doing this to me. My body squirmed from how sensitive my chest was.

The movements from Roxas's thumbs ceased and his hands recoiled from under my shirt. I tried to regain control of myself as I saw the smirk cross his face.

"Told you."

I believed him now. I felt bad that I was doing that to him without even knowing what I was actually doing. But I would definitely have to remember that move for another time.

"Sorry. I had no idea." I gave a sigh as I finally got my breathing and heart rate back to normal.

"I enjoyed it very much." He gave me a soft kiss on my cheek.

"I'll try to get better at doing stuff like that. Just… be patient with me." I was determined to be able to bring Roxas as much pleasure as he could for me. I didn't want to be that bad boyfriend who couldn't do anything in bed.

"I don't want you to do anything you aren't comfortable with. You are by far the best lover and friend I've ever had." I smiled at his bold statement. I had never been told anything like that.

"I love you Roxas."

"I love you too, Zexion."

"But I will improve my skills someday." I was completely determined now. I would read books about the subject and look on the internet for anything I could find. I am going to blow Roxas away with my skill… of course not anytime soon.

"Looks like now it's my time to tutor you."

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Since Tuesday's dilemma with Roxas backing down, he hasn't made a single move on me. I'm starting to think he really is tired of me. He usually jumps me every time we're alone together in the same room. I didn't understand what he was thinking.

"Oh God. We're finally done." Roxas flopped down on the couch and stretched out his limbs. I put the last of his math homework in his folder.

We had spent all of our free time working nonstop to finish his assignments all week. It was now Sunday afternoon and we were just finishing. We had split up the work evenly between the two of us and it seemed to really work out in the end.

"It wasn't all that bad. But I am glad that we finished." I pulled myself up from my sitting position on the ground and took a seat next to Roxas on the couch. He was leaning back with his eyes closed and his arm behind his head, a relaxed look on his face. I studied him close and noticed my fingers twitching with the need to touch his hand.

I inched my hand closer towards his but stopped before I could make physical contact with him. Almost as if Roxas could read my mind, his hand grabbed mine and intertwined his fingers with mine. I blushed even though I couldn't be seen by him. The familiar tingling sensation spread from my hand to the rest of my body.

"Roxas. Can I ask you something?" His thumb started to caress mine with soothing strokes.

"Mhm."

"Umm… Is it because I'm not a virgin anymore?"

Roxas immediately sat up and turned his body towards me, his eyes snapped opened. His hand squeezed mine as he gave me a puzzled expression. I blushed instantly and looked away, ashamed I had even brought up the topic. I didn't really want to know the answer.

"Zexion. What did they do to you?" His voice was harsh with no emotion as his eyes searched desperately for a notion hidden on my face.

"His umm… in my mouth…" I wanted to pull my hand away from Roxas when I felt him squeeze it even tighter. I wasn't fully aware that Roxas had no idea what happened that day other than the violence. I had no idea what his reaction would be.

He grabbed my jaw with his free hand and I flinched at the slight pain that developed. His thumb and forefinger pressed roughly into my cheeks, prying my jaw open and forcing my teeth to prod against the inside of my cheeks.

"His dirty cock? In my Angel's mouth?" He leaned forward and plunged his tongue into my open mouth. He released his grip on my chin and chose to place his hand soothingly on his cheek.

I shuddered at the tingling feeling that developed through my body. His hand that was holding mine gave gentle, consoling squeezes. Our tongues danced with each other and explored each other's mouths with confidence.

He sucked, nipped, and licked until I was moaning and grabbing on to his shoulders. I could feel the pressure start to build and my hips started to involuntarily rock back and forth against the couch.

Roxas broke the kiss, leaving me gasping for air. He continued to place kisses across my cheek, down my neck, and along the exposed part of my chest. I ran my hands from his shoulders into his hair and grabbed a hand full of his mane like hair.

He tasted the sweat that was beginning to form on my neck and lightly scrapped his teeth along my skin. He pulled away and my hands fell into my lap. He grabbed my hand and pulled us both off of the couch.

He led me down a familiar hallway and into his bedroom. I felt a rush of blood to my cheeks when I realized just what could happen on his bed.

He paused and turned around to look at me. "Zexion. You know I love you very much. There is nothing I wouldn't do for you. Here, sit down." He sat down on the edge of his bed and gave my hand a squeeze to encourage me to sit next to me. I was surprised he thought there was even a chance I wouldn't sit down next to him. I gave him a smile and sat down to his right.

"Sometimes I just don't know what to do. I want to kill him. For even just laying a hand on you, I want to kill him." He looked at me and I could see tears filling his eyes. Anger and pain were prominent and I could feel my heart sting at his welling emotions.

"Roxas, I hate to bring this kind of pain to you. You'd be better off without me; you'd be much happier. I only cause you to be upset and angry." I had to blink back tears. Now there was a possibility we could break up and thinking about going back to how I was, was enough to force me into a panic attack.

"You are such an idiot. You are the only thing that makes me as happy as I am. You have changed my life so much, Zexion."

"But…"

"Hear me out for a second. If for even a second I made you believe I was having second thoughts about you, I'm sorry. I was trying to give you a little space so you could work through everything that's happened. You have no idea how many times I had to hold myself back in the last week."

I felt my body relax and loosen all of my tense muscles. I was just overreacting and jumping to conclusions. I seemed to do that a lot when it had to do with Roxas.

I bit my bottom lip and looked down as I tried to compile the words I wanted to say to him. I wish he hadn't held back. I want him more than anything and having to know that he can't be himself around me is heartbreaking.

"Tell me what's on your mind." Roxas bent his head down slightly, trying to regain eye contact with me.

Why can he read me so easily? I never know what's going on in his mind and yet he can read me like a book. I slightly frowned at the idea. "I wish I was better at this relationship stuff. My intelligence doesn't seem to be good for it."

I heard Roxas chuckle and my head snapped towards him. "Don't worry, Zex. Experience doesn't always help with relationships. You're doing very well for your first time." He smiled at me and I couldn't hide the smile that spread across my face also.

Gathering all the courage I had, I leaned in towards Roxas and placed a soft kiss on his lips. I pulled back immediately and looked away as I felt my cheeks start to burn.

"You're full of surprises, babe." I turned to look at him, but before I could his mouth was latched onto mine. He sucked on my top lip, grating his teeth gently across it.

I placed my hand on his chest. Wanting to return the pleasure he was bringing me, I ran my thumb across his nipple over his shirt. T-That was pleasurable, right? It wasn't weird to do that… I hope.

He parted from the kiss and as soon as he did I had the instinct to run. It was definitely strange to do that. Roxas probably hated that kind of thing.

Roxas placed his limp head on my shoulder. "You're too good Zexion. I've never had to hold back this much."

"You're lying. I never know what I'm doing. There is no way I'm doing anything that you like." My kisses were sloppy, my tongue unskilled, and my hands were clumsy. I had no idea what he was talking about.
"I'll show you then."

He hands found the end of my shirt and wiggled their way onto bare skin. I gasped as they moved up to my chest and started to explore. Roxas smirked and I guessed he found what he was looking for when each of his thumbs rubbed over my nipples.

His fingers rubbed, twirled, and pinked my nipples. I couldn't hold back my moans any longer and grabbed onto Roxas's shoulders. I completely forgot the pleasure I received from Roxas doing this to me. My body squirmed from how sensitive my chest was.

The movements from Roxas's thumbs ceased and his hands recoiled from under my shirt. I tried to regain control of myself as I saw the smirk cross his face.

"Told you."

I believed him now. I felt bad that I was doing that to him without even knowing what I was actually doing. But I would definitely have to remember that move for another time.

"Sorry. I had no idea." I gave a sigh as I finally got my breathing and heart rate back to normal.

"I enjoyed it very much." He gave me a soft kiss on my cheek.

"I'll try to get better at doing stuff like that. Just… be patient with me." I was determined to be able to bring Roxas as much pleasure as he could for me. I didn't want to be that bad boyfriend who couldn't do anything in bed.

"I don't want you to do anything you aren't comfortable with. You are by far the best lover and friend I've ever had." I smiled at his bold statement. I had never been told anything like that.

"I love you Roxas."

"I love you too, Zexion."

"But I will improve my skills someday." I was completely determined now. I would read books about the subject and look on the internet for anything I could find. I am going to blow Roxas away with my skill… of course not anytime soon.

"Looks like now it's my time to tutor you."