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Fall-Into-Me [2006-10-15 21:48:32 +0000 UTC]
I really love this, it's definitely my favorite so far. I share the same thoughts, although mine probably aren't to the extreme yours are. But I know what you mean, at least- I'm stuck here, and I always will be. It's my home, and I can't leave it, no matter how wrong it is.
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Moominaba In reply to Fall-Into-Me [2006-10-16 21:52:21 +0000 UTC]
Isn't is all just dandy?
The concept of home seems seems so foggy sometimes.
The problem with my home is the fact that it's a closed community. Just to become a member here you have to go through a 4 year testing period. Being born and raised here makes leaving almost impossible. As long as you live here they take care of everything for you. The moment you leave your completely abandoned. That's part of the problem at least.
*sigh*
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Fall-Into-Me In reply to Moominaba [2006-10-16 23:09:43 +0000 UTC]
Wow, that is WAY worse than my home. I guess I just feel like I have to stay here, to take care of everyone. I mean I honestly don't know what it would be like without me. I do a lot of stuff for them, and I feel like I owe my family a lot, which I do. But at the same time, it's like, I'm not happy here. But I'm totally willing to sit here and, well, be depressed a lot of the time.
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Moominaba In reply to Fall-Into-Me [2006-10-16 23:23:42 +0000 UTC]
It's the same here on the femilial scale and also on a much wider scale.
We're encourged to do all we can for the community. Which is well and all but it's encourged on the level that we give up our life entire life for something we might not belive in. It's an interesting sort of life. Depressed I try no to be. Writing the whole idea of where I live might take a while, but I'm always willing to explain more.
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Fall-Into-Me In reply to Moominaba [2006-10-16 23:57:53 +0000 UTC]
Hmm, well here I'm not exactly 'encouraged,' as much as I was raised that way. When I was growing up, it became a game of, If you do what they want, they're happy, and its good if people are happy. So, I figured, if I was what they wanted me to be they'd be happy, and it would be better for all of THEM to be happy and me to be unhappy then just me be happy and all of them upset. I thought it would be kind of selfish of me. But depression, well, it's hard to get rid of after a while. It becomes so familiar that being happy is scary, because you're so not used to it. I'm getting better, though, thanks to friends.
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Moominaba In reply to Fall-Into-Me [2006-10-17 00:40:16 +0000 UTC]
Here it isn't based on the whole being happy thing as much as for the good of the community.
We're supposed to be getting a socialist education but they screwed it up on so many levels.
As for depression I used to be depressed as well untill I decided not to be. Optimism works so much better to deal with life. It's forced at first but quickly it becomes real.
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Fall-Into-Me In reply to Moominaba [2006-10-17 10:02:24 +0000 UTC]
Yeah, I'm getting used to it now. It's strange how different our societies are, but how we both get the general feeling from them. Of course yours is more severe, I don't even know what I would do if I was in your place; to be honest, I'd probably leave. But then, I think you mentioned, there would be consequences.
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Moominaba In reply to Fall-Into-Me [2006-10-17 21:08:29 +0000 UTC]
Lol.
It sounds like a movie.
"The consequences will be dire". It's not that much of a secret service thing, it's just the problem of being so dependent of my community for so long and then haveing no support at all that makes it so hard to leave.
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Fall-Into-Me In reply to Moominaba [2006-10-17 22:43:47 +0000 UTC]
Yeah, I can see where that would be a problem, and kind of scary. Oh well, life is never completely satisfying, right? There's ups and downs. I guess we all just learn to live with it.
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kiki-nanna [2006-04-14 07:51:49 +0000 UTC]
Hiii again xD~ I like the feeling of it alot. It flows really well, and there's no part where it just stops and lose it's ideas and feeling.
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timerise [2006-03-25 21:06:08 +0000 UTC]
I think your poetry is kinda likesome of my poetry.. flowing language, interesting images, it rings true yet the meaning is obscure to one who doesn't know you and doesn't know what you are talking about, kinda a private message to those who know, not by intention so, but because only those who know can really understand. and I think you come from a really differant place than me. I recognize the style, but not the message.
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Moominaba In reply to timerise [2006-03-25 21:30:20 +0000 UTC]
Your probably right. A lot of what I write is written as an insperation I get from events in my life. And a lot of it is written for some people. But I still try to put a general messege in them so they would be clearer for others as well. Maybe I am a little too obscure.
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