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Description Excitedly walking in the bright morning sun, Mum, Dad, sister, younger brother and my self. My youngest brother was still but a babe in arms and was left in the care of Grandma Taff for the day.

Youngest brother duly deposited, we were off, up Middleton road past the rows of black, stone, back to back mill terraces to Morley β€œTop” station. This was to be my first trip on a train.

The train pulled into the station, shaking the ground, belching smoke and steam and hissing like nothing I had heard before. The smell of coal, oil and grease is still in my nostrils to this day.

We were on our way, swaying and clanking down the track, peering out of the window at the passing landscape. Terraced houses giving way to open fields then suddenly darkness as the train entered the first of the tunnels then bursting out into the bright sunshine once more. More houses now unfamiliar, through the cut over the viaduct, up on to the moors then under the moors.

In no time at all we were pulling into our destination, a huge noisy station, dozens of trains, some of them diesel, hundreds of people rushing about in all directions.
I remember walking for what seemed to be miles on smooth, foot worn stone pavements which ran alongside red brick arches for as far as I could see, I could still hear and feel the trains rumbling by somewhere above the arches and there were more people than I had ever seen in one place before, all walking in the same direction.
Crossing the road, over the tram tracks and through gates in the wall we were at our destination, Belle View Zoo.
My only memory of being at the zoo is of being in a motor boat on a large boating lake with my Dad and it was brilliant.

This is the last memory I have of my Dad, he died when I was four years old and I was probably about three and a half years old when we took a day trip to Belle View Zoo.
My memories from my early life are few and they come to me rarely. When they do, they come as old, faded, black and white photographs not technicolour movies.

I don't remember the point when he was no longer there which saddens me. I never had the chance to know him which saddens me even more. I hope I would have been proud of him and he of me and that we would have been friends in my adulthood but I'll never know.

This image is what prompted this recollection and that recollection is what prompted me to present this image in the form you see it, an old faded photograph found in the dusty corner of an old chest of drawers.
It's funny what can spark a memory and the creative imagination.


If you have read this I thank you sincerely as it was difficult for me to write and at forty eight years old I still don't really know how I feel about it.
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Comments: 19

Synaptica [2010-12-09 21:54:56 +0000 UTC]

Thank you for sharing the memories and feelings that a simple image evoked for you. You have a real knack for writing, I hope you write often.

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taffmeister In reply to Synaptica [2010-12-14 22:15:19 +0000 UTC]

Thank you very much for taking the time to view this image and read what I have written.
On the rare occasions that I think on my own past I'm saddened by how little memory I have of any of it. This little story is built from only three or four of those old, faded black and white photographs which are my memories. The rest of the story is pieced together from more recent knowledge of the places described.
I have rarely put pen to paper, never really had very much to say that I thought others may find interesting.
In this instance I needed to verbalise my thoughts before they disappeared from my head.
I was intending to present it just as a list of my thoughts and feelings as they came to me but needed to fill the gaps and organise my thoughts and I have to say I found it an emotional journey, hence the title.
Since joining DA I have found myself thinking more about language, trying to think of titles and descriptions for images which I find more difficult than making the images in the first place.

Thanks again for your time and consideration, it's greatly appreciated.

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BlonderMoment [2010-12-04 16:56:12 +0000 UTC]

good picture, lovely words tony

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crowthius [2010-12-03 20:37:47 +0000 UTC]

Sorry about your dad. I never knew that about him.

I've faved this Tony, mainly for the story, which turned this into more than just a picture. It became an experience, one which got me thinking about my own early life too and it revived hazy childhood memories. Before I knew it, I had been daydreaming for ten minutes. As you say, images can prompt recollection, even images put there by the pen of someone else.

Thanks Tony.

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taffmeister In reply to crowthius [2010-12-03 22:17:17 +0000 UTC]

No worries Steve, as I said in the writing, I rarely think about it though it seems to be popping into my head more frequently these days.
I tried writing a song once about this, the idea being, who would I be now if he hadn't died when he did? I certainly wouldn't be the person you know now.
I scrapped it, too big a subject to state succinctly enough for the purpose of a song.

Thanks for taking the time to read it mate, as I said it was quite difficult to organise my thoughts and write them down.

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Braunaudio [2010-11-27 21:30:02 +0000 UTC]

touching shot, and story to go with it tony.

memories are precious, and it's suprising what can set them off.

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GaryTaffinder [2010-11-25 23:16:48 +0000 UTC]

Nice sentiment Tony & image

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taffmeister In reply to GaryTaffinder [2010-11-25 23:19:20 +0000 UTC]

Thanks Gary. I just needed to verbalise my thoughts before they disappeared.

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GaryTaffinder In reply to taffmeister [2010-11-25 23:21:46 +0000 UTC]

I know the feeling. Wish i could remember mine a little longer before they disappear

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Fluff-E-Kitty [2010-11-25 23:11:51 +0000 UTC]

memroies can be the most beutifful and honting things we humans have.
if that made scent- did in my head. hope i sayed it right.


i remember walkes with my grandfather. not the day itself, but jest being with him.
and my grate grandmother, who even thouhgt forgot where she lived tword the end, never forgot me and my sister. it bring a fellng of sadness to have known her more in her delcing years, but, im galde i knew her.

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taffmeister In reply to Fluff-E-Kitty [2010-11-25 23:33:40 +0000 UTC]

Thanks Brendan, it makes perfect sense.
I think I should probably sit and talk with my mum, she may be able to fill in some gaps and my Dad's last surviving brother, though it will probably be difficult for them to talk about it too.

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Fluff-E-Kitty In reply to taffmeister [2010-11-27 05:49:30 +0000 UTC]

indeed. its alwas hard to talk about such things, however presevring memories is well worth wiel.

i have to ask my unkel at some point aobut his experincees in veitnam, althouhgt it may be hard to borht ask and talk aobut.

if i rember corretly he was a counter sniper. he dose have alot of photos that he got to keep evne thouhgt thay where recon tacken from a helicopter.

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danUK86 [2010-11-25 22:44:06 +0000 UTC]

Sad, touching story mate.. sorry to hear it, but thanks for sharing too, must be hard to write about it

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taffmeister In reply to danUK86 [2010-11-25 23:07:24 +0000 UTC]

Cheers Dan. It's funny, but the older I get, the more I feel the need to know about him and the less people there are around who knew him or about him.
Thanks for taking the time to read this, though in truth the only faded, black and white photographs in my head from this memory are my Dad in the motorboat, the steam engine arriving at the platform and the endless red brick arches of Manchester station, the rest of the tale is artistic license and gaps filled through more recent experiences.

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danUK86 In reply to taffmeister [2010-11-25 23:29:24 +0000 UTC]

No problem mate

I love steam trains, I don't remember my first trip on one, however I'm told I was terrified and wouldn't get on
Oh how we change

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taffmeister In reply to danUK86 [2010-11-25 23:35:38 +0000 UTC]

Lol. My uncle did fiver years as a fireman and when he finally became a driver it all changed to diesel. He left the railway shortly afterwards.

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danUK86 In reply to taffmeister [2010-11-25 23:55:38 +0000 UTC]

typical

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mosstd [2010-11-25 22:37:36 +0000 UTC]

sorry to hear about your loss. my dad was never around so my grandad took over and i lost him when i was 12 and can kind of relate to what you say. all i do now is try to live my life the way i think he would of liked
best wishes and deepest sympathys

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taffmeister In reply to mosstd [2010-11-25 23:13:37 +0000 UTC]

Thanks Gareth. Life has a way of sneaking up and biting you in the backside sometimes.
As I said, these memories rarely enter my head but when they do I can get quite emotional which takes me by surprise every time.
Maybe, even though I was only four, I haven't grieved his loss or even acknowledged it properly yet. I don't know, maybe I need some therapy.

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