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I posted this almost 3 weeks ago at furaffinity, so the description is just a copy paste of the FA post:

I keep having these nauseating dreams for years to the point that I don't feel anything for them anymore. I stopped calling them nightmares long ago.

Its been years, YEARS since I started dreaming of corpses, zombies in apocalypses and cats. I often have nightmares of cat corpses, I either step on them by mistake, I am half blinded and where ever I go I find them or I am literally picking them to move them aside. Sometimes I see living cats in a group but there is always at least one or two dead cats in advanced decomposition state, in roadkill aftermath positions even. I dont know what to do, this dreams are so annoying because for so long I have been longing to have good inspirational dreams and yet all I ever experience in my slumber is this or my pets dying (again) like a video playing backwards.

Sometimes I dream of being a black cat, but I am always running away from something or someone, often climbing as fast as I can from what ever that is chasing me. I have poken about this with my therapist a year ago, but there is nothing really to be done. I have never owned cats, but I do often feed street cats, I am currently healing the infected leg of one (which is showing progress), so none of this explains why my brain is so fixiated with cats in such a dark way. Zombies and corpses are recurring too, I remember dreaming of the ceiling opening and a bunch of human corpses falling on top of me, I lose sight of the ceiling as the pile of corpses engulf me.

Sighhhhhhhh when will I have normal dreams?? I envy those who have pretty soothing dreams. I have come to the point that I am just never afraid inside the dreams, not disgusted, nor enraged, or anything. I am just an automata replaying the same plot in different scenarios.

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My characters/Toyhou.se | Furaffinity | Buzzly | Twitter | Instagram

I posted this almost 3 weeks ago at furaffinity, so the description is just a copy paste of the FA post:

I keep having these nauseating dreams for years to the point that I don't feel anything for them anymore. I stopped calling them nightmares long ago.

Its been years, YEARS since I started dreaming of corpses, zombies in apocalypses and cats. I often have nightmares of cat corpses, I either step on them by mistake, I am half blinded and where ever I go I find them or I am literally picking them to move them aside. Sometimes I see living cats in a group but there is always at least one or two dead cats in advanced decomposition state, in roadkill aftermath positions even. I dont know what to do, this dreams are so annoying because for so long I have been longing to have good inspirational dreams and yet all I ever experience in my slumber is this or my pets dying (again) like a video playing backwards.

Sometimes I dream of being a black cat, but I am always running away from something or someone, often climbing as fast as I can from what ever that is chasing me. I have poken about this with my therapist a year ago, but there is nothing really to be done. I have never owned cats, but I do often feed street cats, I am currently healing the infected leg of one (which is showing progress), so none of this explains why my brain is so fixiated with cats in such a dark way. Zombies and corpses are recurring too, I remember dreaming of the ceiling opening and a bunch of human corpses falling on top of me, I lose sight of the ceiling as the pile of corpses engulf me.

Sighhhhhhhh when will I have normal dreams?? I envy those who have pretty soothing dreams. I have come to the point that I am just never afraid inside the dreams, not disgusted, nor enraged, or anything. I am just an automata replaying the same plot in different scenarios.

If you would like to use my art, PLEASE READ THIS!