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There are days of joy and days of sorrow , but there haven't been any better than these in my whole life. This was a time of pain, going away , of warm bed and even warmer welcoming of every new day . Through first few days after regaining conciousness Bella would sit by my bed on old , stylish ,  leather armchair and read me the news . I could tell the tension in her movements , nervous fingernails biting and playing with stray curls of hair . The stressed built up making her stare with blank eyes to the front yard through the window, waiting for the daily portion of juicy news . Every single day, when the paper finally arrived on the shoewipe ,  stress would reach it's climax and suddenly flatten after one look one look at the headlines . Day by day they would be almost the same - special auror forces were doing great job . Azkaban was collecting rich toll . But despite tons of pages filled with terrific news about small fishes caught in the deatheater's pond , it was quiet about the big ones. Silence before storm , you could say and it would not be far from truth . The cream of Azkaban's milk - the most feared and most experienced aurors caught the trace ... And they are closer than ever before .

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Since the time that far from perfection meals of Bella helped me stand on my own I started to walk . Starting with few steps on the distance between my bed and a kitchen through strolls around the house and climbing stairs up and down, I began to strenghten . When walking stopped being any challenge at all for me, I started to sit in front of the window and just stare outside . I waited for Bellatrix to come back from her daily walks to the forest . Scent of a forest , wet and heavy filled my nostrils and time of awaiting . I caught myself at waking at night and just listening to the mindight howls of animals . Waiting for Bella was only a excuse - actually I wanted to fill myself with what was unknown to me , dirty city's suspicious street's child . All I wanted was to go out, touch, feel, taste, roll in the moss . "You want it , don't you " She asked me one time while I was gazing out the window early in the morning . As I turned back to nod my head in agreement I saw her holding my brand new coat sewn together from pieces of brown , soft leather . - You know me to well - I said and hugged her with my thinned from illness arms crumpling outfit , the best present I have ever gotten in my life .

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chilled air of the late , cool days of autumn filled my lungs forcing me to cough a few times . Impression that woods on the nearby hills made on me was nearly unspeakable . -Lovely - I said and this one word was enough . One word and a honest , cheerful smile at the thought of getting to know every tree in this forest , one by one  ... with the greatest guide of all . Guide that covered me with her own jacket when I mentioned I am cold and led me home . If one rock can cause avalanche , then it was those first steps on forest path, that caused it all . Bella thaught me everything she knew about this place . "One can forget his friends, when he is told to . But friends won't forget him . One can try to forget his homeland or origins, but he will never succeed . "She told me once with melancholic tones in her voice " You will surely see what I mean "I was overflowing with passion towards her and this new world , formerly hidden behind a thin plate of glass . I came to know all it's inhabitant - their families, their homes , even their hopes and fears .  I learned to respect them and their power . Together with my love, we explored world of both harmony and wilderness . We lived through marching mornings, intimate evenings in front of fireplace ... until one tenseful day .

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One of the quickly passing days filled with long and precious moments we came back ,laughing, a bit cold and covered in different animal's fur, from the woods . I came first, so I was already inside when Bella picked up a paper . She followed me, but froze halfway through the door letting the snow pour in on heavy gusts of wind . "We are leaving"she said and added seeing surprised look on my face "NOW !" she dragged me out of the corridor into the snow, barely giving me time to pick up my scarf again , heading towards back yard .- Where are we going ? - I asked trying to keep up "Don't waste your breath " she replied handing me the paper, which was screamind from the front page with capital letters " Bramsby severed ! Aurors fail to catch Voldemort ! Numerous Deaths ! ".
- But Bramsby is ... - " Two hours of walk from here  . Too near . " She finished for me and continued "Hang on , we are gonna rush . There is a place we can be safe ... " she paused taking her time to pull out her wand . " or just hope to ... " Mobilicorpus . The snow covered trees and bushes shook as we flew by dragged by the force of the spell . -We are gonna crash - I shouted grasping at her arm and choking with the wind . " No, we are not " she replied calmly, not even looking forward , as if rushing through the forest at extreme speed was something normal . "If you are scared, you can close your eyes , or just look the other way " She added with some harsh strings playing in her voice . I listened to her advice and looked back, at the blizzard-like cloud that rose behind us . In this white madness something black suddenly flashed in front of my eyes . Or was it someone ? -Bella ?! - I screamed while purple beam missed us by foot hitting the tree . In a blink of an eye both of us were down and rolling in the snow surrounded by creaking , scary sounds . "Ewa! Run ! " I heard Bella shout from five meters away . I saw her desperately looking for the wand , lost in deep snow . By the time I looked up looking for the source of mysteriouc creaking and she used Accio, it was too late for anything . Giant pine crashed both my legs in merciless wooden grip . I choked with my own scream and the only sound that came out of mouth was rusty "Aaaaaaah" that sounded like opening of the ever closed door deep in your mind that have been shut since the beginning of the world . My scream remembered his function and tore the white silence in half . "Shhh , shhh " Bellatrix tried to overcome the noise I made with mere whisper "Everything will be allright . " and added after a pause, just when my throat became sore and Scream changed into rusty sobbing " I will come back " . I could not feel much pain, surprisinlgy, beside feeling that my entire body began to crush into pieces , but I could feel my heart split is two, as she disappeared in the woods leaving me alone . Alone with Voldemort , who , judging from the steps was reaching me "creek" "creek" "creek" - steps on the snow ... Silence . Breath on the neck ...  ~I can feel your fear~ He sssaid reeking with blood . - That... must be quite a-an achievement for some-one without nose - I said trying to sound carelessly pushing the words through teeth with my breaking voice . The pain made me grasp on small branches cutting skin on my palms and all my muscles stretching to it's extent . ~Oh... and I was going to end it quick~ he said making dramatic pause ~ But now ... You're gonna suffer ~ . Dark red aura surrounded my body , but only thing I could feel from it resembled being hit by electric fence . - Overdose - I said with my jaw muscles clenched against my will - You know the word ? - I said doing something, what could pretend to be giggling . - You don't shave your head, so what's the point in torturing me ? -. ~Ah~ He whined as if he had missed his favourite TV show ~ I can at least kill you and ... ~he added with crimson smile on his lipless mouth ~Since I cannot use Avada , because of Bellatrix's earlier failure , this is gonna be fun~ . ~So~ He continued, pointing tip of his wand at me ~what spell should I use ? How about Bombar*CRASH* ... it appears she was not lying ... weird ~ he faced in the direction the sound came from ~ Fun must wait ~

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Repetitive thumping sound with minor and major crashing was louder and louder . Something big was coming, something , judging from the intensity of trees' shaking , even bigger than a mountain troll . Voldemort took his battlestance, which , in his case , meant only pointing his wand not even acurately in the direction of danger . Few crashes and thumps later giant shape literally came through the curtain of woods . I could not except less from Bella's reinforcements, frankly speaking . She was riding adult rock golem with his golden eyes filled with rage and back covered with moss. By both his sides were , as a guards or as additional strike force , two wolves growling deeply . One of giant's fist shot out couple of meters in the air to crash Voldemort in the matter of moments . ~ Avada Kedavra ~ He said with his vioce unbelievably calm, considering view of giant rock arm making pulp from him in very near future . Ruble of falling rocks filled immediately whole clearing bathed in poisonous green . Wolf's desperate howling accompanied all this noise, as Bella quickly rolled over on the ground and shot a spell at Voldemort . Two beams splashed in the middle causing green and blue firework show . Voldemort's dense, slower one was steadily pushing Bella's flowing, water-like back . Her hair lifted from all the power in the air , I could feel shivers crawling under my skin . - Shit , I have to do something - I thought to myself seeing that Bella is barely managing to keep her spell on  - My wand ! My wand ! - I froze realising that it is currently trapped under a rather big block of wood . - I am definitely fucked - Some silent sound drew my attention back to the battle , precisely to two wolves beneath the ruble . Fog-like , round shape drifted from their foreheads and joined blueish aura covering Bella's body , the denser , the closer to the wand . ~Pathetic~ said Voldemort without using any words, just moving his lips, as Bella pushed the collision one meter toward him . - Shit ! They are giving their souls away and I am not able to help even one bit ! - My thoughts boiled in my mind pushing me into black vortex of despair . Rage filled my eyes and soul making hopelessness fade out in the meantime . I could feel rough texture of bark with my fingers, but there was something more . I could sense something old ... powerful with a primal kind of force . That something - I felt it is on my side . - Help me , please - I whispered with blood stained lips . The mysterious power made my hair rise and muscle clinch on wood breaking it . Everte Statum I shouted with echoing voice of thousands -What the f**k am I doing ? What the hell is controlling me ? - The spell hit one of the rock remnants of golem's body . Bella was about to fell down any second , exhausted from battle . Suddenly *Whizzz* ... something sharp cut the air at high speed .

***

Everything happened in one moment . Voldemort stared at me with empty eyes, dripping blood from tunnel between his jaw and top of his head . Then the bella spell hit him , making him fly ten meters back, with a hole , where once was his lungs . The ancient power kept flowing through my body . Pine wood, which rested on my legs, rose a bit . First , I thought I am only Imagining it because of numbness of my legs. Then I noticed little trees growing at incredible pace everywhere around , which did their best to lift wooden log . The pian came back , but now ... in a cleansing way . Itching must mean that ... I am healing ? Wolves already stood up, crawling out of the rubble . -Bella! I can't hear Bella ! - Panic started to race in my head . Both wolves came to me to help me get out from my earthy coffin . They dragged me, until they was not able to, leaving bloody signs on the ground . Now I was supposed to walk on my own . Walk the lasw few meters on my newly healed legs through the sharp rock splinters . Unstable , trying not to trip on slippery patches of the moss with a little help of wolves I managed to come close her . I kneeled before the body , not quite knowing what I am expected to do . I rose my hand . Nothing . I tried to focus on the feeling I had before . I looked one of the wolves in the eyes, supposed to ask a question , but in a blink of an eye did I drown in black, deep wilderness . - Thank you for reminding me - I said smiling to him and raised my hands over her . There was no light effects, no sounds , nothing special . Yet her injuries started to heal - from minor scratches, to cut veins . She was healing like it was nothing, among with beatiful flowers blooming on the whole clearing . She woke up, as first brown leaves starting falling off . Nature have made another cycle . Cycle of life . Voldemort's body seemed to evaporate or soak into the ground completely leaving just black robes and patch of burnt grass behind . "Hells, you" -shhh- I interupted her by putting my finger over her mouth - this time I am the one to carry you - . Forest habitants came out of their shelters just to greet us with respectful smiles . I grinned to popcats and wind gently petting my skin . I marched , carrrying the only weigh I would like to carry in my life . One mad man just found his sanity .

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Description
There are days of joy and days of sorrow , but there haven't been any better than these in my whole life. This was a time of pain, going away , of warm bed and even warmer welcoming of every new day . Through first few days after regaining conciousness Bella would sit by my bed on old , stylish ,  leather armchair and read me the news . I could tell the tension in her movements , nervous fingernails biting and playing with stray curls of hair . The stressed built up making her stare with blank eyes to the front yard through the window, waiting for the daily portion of juicy news . Every single day, when the paper finally arrived on the shoewipe ,  stress would reach it's climax and suddenly flatten after one look one look at the headlines . Day by day they would be almost the same - special auror forces were doing great job . Azkaban was collecting rich toll . But despite tons of pages filled with terrific news about small fishes caught in the deatheater's pond , it was quiet about the big ones. Silence before storm , you could say and it would not be far from truth . The cream of Azkaban's milk - the most feared and most experienced aurors caught the trace ... And they are closer than ever before .

***

Since the time that far from perfection meals of Bella helped me stand on my own I started to walk . Starting with few steps on the distance between my bed and a kitchen through strolls around the house and climbing stairs up and down, I began to strenghten . When walking stopped being any challenge at all for me, I started to sit in front of the window and just stare outside . I waited for Bellatrix to come back from her daily walks to the forest . Scent of a forest , wet and heavy filled my nostrils and time of awaiting . I caught myself at waking at night and just listening to the mindight howls of animals . Waiting for Bella was only a excuse - actually I wanted to fill myself with what was unknown to me , dirty city's suspicious street's child . All I wanted was to go out, touch, feel, taste, roll in the moss . "You want it , don't you " She asked me one time while I was gazing out the window early in the morning . As I turned back to nod my head in agreement I saw her holding my brand new coat sewn together from pieces of brown , soft leather . - You know me to well - I said and hugged her with my thinned from illness arms crumpling outfit , the best present I have ever gotten in my life .

***

chilled air of the late , cool days of autumn filled my lungs forcing me to cough a few times . Impression that woods on the nearby hills made on me was nearly unspeakable . -Lovely - I said and this one word was enough . One word and a honest , cheerful smile at the thought of getting to know every tree in this forest , one by one  ... with the greatest guide of all . Guide that covered me with her own jacket when I mentioned I am cold and led me home . If one rock can cause avalanche , then it was those first steps on forest path, that caused it all . Bella thaught me everything she knew about this place . "One can forget his friends, when he is told to . But friends won't forget him . One can try to forget his homeland or origins, but he will never succeed . "She told me once with melancholic tones in her voice " You will surely see what I mean "I was overflowing with passion towards her and this new world , formerly hidden behind a thin plate of glass . I came to know all it's inhabitant - their families, their homes , even their hopes and fears .  I learned to respect them and their power . Together with my love, we explored world of both harmony and wilderness . We lived through marching mornings, intimate evenings in front of fireplace ... until one tenseful day .

***

One of the quickly passing days filled with long and precious moments we came back ,laughing, a bit cold and covered in different animal's fur, from the woods . I came first, so I was already inside when Bella picked up a paper . She followed me, but froze halfway through the door letting the snow pour in on heavy gusts of wind . "We are leaving"she said and added seeing surprised look on my face "NOW !" she dragged me out of the corridor into the snow, barely giving me time to pick up my scarf again , heading towards back yard .- Where are we going ? - I asked trying to keep up "Don't waste your breath " she replied handing me the paper, which was screamind from the front page with capital letters " Bramsby severed ! Aurors fail to catch Voldemort ! Numerous Deaths ! ".
- But Bramsby is ... - " Two hours of walk from here  . Too near . " She finished for me and continued "Hang on , we are gonna rush . There is a place we can be safe ... " she paused taking her time to pull out her wand . " or just hope to ... " Mobilicorpus . The snow covered trees and bushes shook as we flew by dragged by the force of the spell . -We are gonna crash - I shouted grasping at her arm and choking with the wind . " No, we are not " she replied calmly, not even looking forward , as if rushing through the forest at extreme speed was something normal . "If you are scared, you can close your eyes , or just look the other way " She added with some harsh strings playing in her voice . I listened to her advice and looked back, at the blizzard-like cloud that rose behind us . In this white madness something black suddenly flashed in front of my eyes . Or was it someone ? -Bella ?! - I screamed while purple beam missed us by foot hitting the tree . In a blink of an eye both of us were down and rolling in the snow surrounded by creaking , scary sounds . "Ewa! Run ! " I heard Bella shout from five meters away . I saw her desperately looking for the wand , lost in deep snow . By the time I looked up looking for the source of mysteriouc creaking and she used Accio, it was too late for anything . Giant pine crashed both my legs in merciless wooden grip . I choked with my own scream and the only sound that came out of mouth was rusty "Aaaaaaah" that sounded like opening of the ever closed door deep in your mind that have been shut since the beginning of the world . My scream remembered his function and tore the white silence in half . "Shhh , shhh " Bellatrix tried to overcome the noise I made with mere whisper "Everything will be allright . " and added after a pause, just when my throat became sore and Scream changed into rusty sobbing " I will come back " . I could not feel much pain, surprisinlgy, beside feeling that my entire body began to crush into pieces , but I could feel my heart split is two, as she disappeared in the woods leaving me alone . Alone with Voldemort , who , judging from the steps was reaching me "creek" "creek" "creek" - steps on the snow ... Silence . Breath on the neck ...  ~I can feel your fear~ He sssaid reeking with blood . - That... must be quite a-an achievement for some-one without nose - I said trying to sound carelessly pushing the words through teeth with my breaking voice . The pain made me grasp on small branches cutting skin on my palms and all my muscles stretching to it's extent . ~Oh... and I was going to end it quick~ he said making dramatic pause ~ But now ... You're gonna suffer ~ . Dark red aura surrounded my body , but only thing I could feel from it resembled being hit by electric fence . - Overdose - I said with my jaw muscles clenched against my will - You know the word ? - I said doing something, what could pretend to be giggling . - You don't shave your head, so what's the point in torturing me ? -. ~Ah~ He whined as if he had missed his favourite TV show ~ I can at least kill you and ... ~he added with crimson smile on his lipless mouth ~Since I cannot use Avada , because of Bellatrix's earlier failure , this is gonna be fun~ . ~So~ He continued, pointing tip of his wand at me ~what spell should I use ? How about Bombar*CRASH* ... it appears she was not lying ... weird ~ he faced in the direction the sound came from ~ Fun must wait ~

***

Repetitive thumping sound with minor and major crashing was louder and louder . Something big was coming, something , judging from the intensity of trees' shaking , even bigger than a mountain troll . Voldemort took his battlestance, which , in his case , meant only pointing his wand not even acurately in the direction of danger . Few crashes and thumps later giant shape literally came through the curtain of woods . I could not except less from Bella's reinforcements, frankly speaking . She was riding adult rock golem with his golden eyes filled with rage and back covered with moss. By both his sides were , as a guards or as additional strike force , two wolves growling deeply . One of giant's fist shot out couple of meters in the air to crash Voldemort in the matter of moments . ~ Avada Kedavra ~ He said with his vioce unbelievably calm, considering view of giant rock arm making pulp from him in very near future . Ruble of falling rocks filled immediately whole clearing bathed in poisonous green . Wolf's desperate howling accompanied all this noise, as Bella quickly rolled over on the ground and shot a spell at Voldemort . Two beams splashed in the middle causing green and blue firework show . Voldemort's dense, slower one was steadily pushing Bella's flowing, water-like back . Her hair lifted from all the power in the air , I could feel shivers crawling under my skin . - Shit , I have to do something - I thought to myself seeing that Bella is barely managing to keep her spell on  - My wand ! My wand ! - I froze realising that it is currently trapped under a rather big block of wood . - I am definitely fucked - Some silent sound drew my attention back to the battle , precisely to two wolves beneath the ruble . Fog-like , round shape drifted from their foreheads and joined blueish aura covering Bella's body , the denser , the closer to the wand . ~Pathetic~ said Voldemort without using any words, just moving his lips, as Bella pushed the collision one meter toward him . - Shit ! They are giving their souls away and I am not able to help even one bit ! - My thoughts boiled in my mind pushing me into black vortex of despair . Rage filled my eyes and soul making hopelessness fade out in the meantime . I could feel rough texture of bark with my fingers, but there was something more . I could sense something old ... powerful with a primal kind of force . That something - I felt it is on my side . - Help me , please - I whispered with blood stained lips . The mysterious power made my hair rise and muscle clinch on wood breaking it . Everte Statum I shouted with echoing voice of thousands -What the f**k am I doing ? What the hell is controlling me ? - The spell hit one of the rock remnants of golem's body . Bella was about to fell down any second , exhausted from battle . Suddenly *Whizzz* ... something sharp cut the air at high speed .

***

Everything happened in one moment . Voldemort stared at me with empty eyes, dripping blood from tunnel between his jaw and top of his head . Then the bella spell hit him , making him fly ten meters back, with a hole , where once was his lungs . The ancient power kept flowing through my body . Pine wood, which rested on my legs, rose a bit . First , I thought I am only Imagining it because of numbness of my legs. Then I noticed little trees growing at incredible pace everywhere around , which did their best to lift wooden log . The pian came back , but now ... in a cleansing way . Itching must mean that ... I am healing ? Wolves already stood up, crawling out of the rubble . -Bella! I can't hear Bella ! - Panic started to race in my head . Both wolves came to me to help me get out from my earthy coffin . They dragged me, until they was not able to, leaving bloody signs on the ground . Now I was supposed to walk on my own . Walk the lasw few meters on my newly healed legs through the sharp rock splinters . Unstable , trying not to trip on slippery patches of the moss with a little help of wolves I managed to come close her . I kneeled before the body , not quite knowing what I am expected to do . I rose my hand . Nothing . I tried to focus on the feeling I had before . I looked one of the wolves in the eyes, supposed to ask a question , but in a blink of an eye did I drown in black, deep wilderness . - Thank you for reminding me - I said smiling to him and raised my hands over her . There was no light effects, no sounds , nothing special . Yet her injuries started to heal - from minor scratches, to cut veins . She was healing like it was nothing, among with beatiful flowers blooming on the whole clearing . She woke up, as first brown leaves starting falling off . Nature have made another cycle . Cycle of life . Voldemort's body seemed to evaporate or soak into the ground completely leaving just black robes and patch of burnt grass behind . "Hells, you" -shhh- I interupted her by putting my finger over her mouth - this time I am the one to carry you - . Forest habitants came out of their shelters just to greet us with respectful smiles . I grinned to popcats and wind gently petting my skin . I marched , carrrying the only weigh I would like to carry in my life . One mad man just found his sanity .

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