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Published: 2008-02-11 20:11:51 +0000 UTC; Views: 879; Favourites: 17; Downloads: 18
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'Shout it out' project-[link]
man, i got carried away.
but if you try the link, spend some time, at least, reading what others have to say.
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I'm a loner too!
But seriously, this is beautiful. Your honesty, as always, is refreshing (although sad.).
Hugs for you!
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thank you! ^^ for the fave aswell
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Woa this shout it out is really emotional, I've been working on mine...
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wow. just...wow. i think this speaks to a lot of people. me included. 
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aw man...i'm flooded by hugs!!
and you could try the project too....
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haha i dont know. No photoshop, and scanner is at another house. I'll think about it. ^.^
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...you could just do it on paint.
i used paint for this as well as adobe.
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I might cut out words from a magazine and paste em. Paint is too hard for me to use >.< its too limited.
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oh wow.....yh that would be awesome! much better than this.
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That's really cool... don't wanna be nit-picky, honest, but it's 'Racism'... and the Masochist bit.. ooh, kinkeh XD
Oh, and
I love my friends to the death as well.
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aw man...i didn't realise! and man...you immediately assume i'm being kinkey, dontcha?
k, a little perhaps XD
....but also in the other sense of just having people against you, wanting to suffer to bring out your best....
and 
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*Imagine it's a lot bigger*
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really? c'mon honey....i don't think like that do I?
XD
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As in, I don't get it... oh, forget it XD
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It sounds so awesome, and tempting....
But I've learned exactly why shouting out my emotions is a horrible thing....
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ah well, here you're not really shouting.
just writing.
and sometimes, i truly wish i had the guts to do that.
i think my friendships could withstand that. but i'm too afraid of losing people.
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yesterday I was 'just writing' as well, and I really hurt a friend of mine....
it appears that Michael is right. I don't deserve to get angry at people, no matter how much wrong they do upon me, because in the end, it is only my morals that say that what they're doing is wrong, while their morals say that they're doing acceptable things and that I'm satan for getting angry....
Whenever I get angry everyone decides that I'm satan.....
Little do they know that there's never a moment when I'm not angry... that I no longer get sad... just angry....
It just fluctuates, heheh, but I'm not allowed to get angry, because then I say really mean things that I can't back up because I'm a fucking pussy, heehee....
Anywho, the point of the story is that I can't shout my emotions because doing that would really hurt a lot of people, so I'll stay within the safety of my many intricately designed masks. ^ ^
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well, you're not satan if they hurt you, which means you get angry.
and well......not that i know.
but it's about getting back to normal
oh what the hell do i know...
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Well, they don't mean to hurt me. I simply take everything as an offense.... I cherish things that oughtn't be cherished, and when I see my sacraments crushed before my eyes I don't cry, I scream in rage....
I know.... But still.... People who would see it.... It would just create a lot of problems, considering who would be looking at it, see? I have... a very corrupt personality....
You know a lot more morally than I do.... You deal with problems in a far better way....
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really?
in what- you mean by crying, and shaking, and halucinating? thn feeling ashamed?
i don't think so.
the only way i'm even slightly sane is by fear and by talking to someone who, to me, knows alot more- namely you.
but whatever..i you wanna flatter my ego...
seriously though, this thing? the whole 'shout it out' is the fact that you don't have to use names, you don't have to aim it at people, it's everything and anhing that goes through your mind.
i mean, behind, on mine it says, 'i've had fantasies involving chicks xD'
it doesn't matter what you write, or who reads it.
i mean, honestly, your friends, if you're afraid if they see it, will erstand. i mean, they wouldn't be friends would they, otherwise?
this is just about, getting it all out, in order to recouperate your sanity and empty the soft crap in the hard shell...(oh, me and my metaphors!)
it's just about honesty. and honety with yourself. read some others. i mean, this isn't evn honest if i was honest with myself...i realsied that a lot of what i wrote here was given...what truly, truly, i want to say i can't. because i was afraid to dwell, then dwelling would lead to deep thinking, which would then lead to tears...and soforth...
there would be alot orse on there otherwise.
alot about self-loathing.
it's just.
try if ycan.
it's just...sharing it. and somehow, someone out there will care enough to give you a 'hug' on DA or something equally as dumb- but ill they tthe time to read your thoughts.
(man, i have got to stop being like this- i always get carried away, and come up with things i didn't even know thought....)
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Well... the fact is that even though I'm lucky to not have to experience that, I wish for it every day....
Heh.... That... means a lot....
Thank you....
Flattering is one thing that I do way to much. It's a product of fear.... I was thinking about posting a journal about the three parts that make me, but I have a feeling that "he" will be offended by it and strike back again.... Meh.... Fear rules my life.
I don't have to use a name for people to be hurt.... The things that would appear....
A lot of fear, and anger. Things like "I'm afraid I'm not truly in love," or "I wish you weren't a part of my life," or, "I can't stop thinking about you."
Mind you, those are three different people....
Also, a lot of my shouting is coming through those regression poems, although the mood that I enter while and after writing them scares me....
The sad thing is, I have very few real friends.... And the people who think they're my friends would be really hurt, and I'd never let myself forget hurting them.... Because I know that they care, but even so....
Never mind.... I shouldn't say things like this. It's not right.
Honesty?
Honesty has only brought me pain. Honesty hurts people, and when I know that I've hurt them I hate myself.... But I can never release my rage at myself, because that hurts people as well....
I'll... try....
But.. I need advice....
I want to do this, but I don't want to hurt everyone....
Heh, that's a good thing. ^ ^
Sorry if this response is deficient or underwritten, but this keyboard is really fruastrating and typing really sl;owly....
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well..honesty's the best policy isn't it?
it truly is, no matter what, no matter how bad it can get.
hey..what am i on? what do i know? i've had the urge to yell at someone for mnths now....but i won't because they're my friend.
i yelle once on DA. put up a comment.
then i put another one up saying that i was sorry for saying that. i mean, she didn't even care reall she said it must've sounded worse inside my head then it really did.ah..i have very few real friends aswell.
iand yh, i understand...i hate myself even if i just think i've annoyed them, lt alone angered them....it' a bad trait.
yh, i kow...fear...but a journal's a journal...if you can write it calmly, without swearing or excessive use of excamation marks...then, if they read it, they're your friends, they'll understand.
and with the things you'd be afraid to put up.
consider this....
what if she ever thought that?
or what you could try doing, is doing something lie this...but split into three panels...one with each aspect, but each saying the truth, i mean, there's always a duality, different sides of a person's personality and you're no exception.
if it would help you, get some ouatleast, thn try it.
honestly (man, that's like my word of the day!), if you get honest with yourself, write what you feel, and it makes you feel better, then do it.
seriously, it's better you get everything out in this way, then it comingout in anothe way. and honestly, that could be a lot worse than a flie posted up on DA.
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