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Published: 2003-05-09 02:08:42 +0000 UTC; Views: 545; Favourites: 2; Downloads: 69
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Description "this is me, beside myself"

i'm really not sure i want a 'self portrait' type picture in here. this is me, sat quietly with myself, while i am stood looking out of my window in atlanta. watching planes, thinking of puerto rico, thinking of piedmont, thinking of a lot of things really.

"i'm talking to myself, i'm talking to the only one i know"

crap, this is turning into self-psychoanalysis! i grew up an only child, i don't know what it means to be by myself chiefly because i am always 'there' with me. more than a few people *tell* me i am a gemini for all of the traits and things i have, but i'm not. i am one self-contained little crab.

"did anybody see myself? my self... excuse me, but do you know my real name?"

probably the best way to live life is to erase all the contrails you can. never burn a bridge, but never look back at the grass on the 'other side' either.

"i turn sideways to the sun and in a moment i am gone"

so this is me... and me... and me... and... well, you get the idea.

xam o->

[and yeah, there's prbly a lot you can tell me is wrong with this shot but if thats the only comment then i'd rather you didn't]
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Comments: 35

heatherlovatt [2004-11-05 03:23:08 +0000 UTC]

I jump in at deep ends, always. Crap conversation bores me silly. I lose jobs because of it.

*grin* I just lost one for a similar reason, really. I wouldn't slow down. Saunter. Stay with the group. You know the drill. Confere. Conform. Be an asshole. (I love those kinds of people.)

Don't you hate when that happens?

Anyway, why'd you show up on my web, just now? What were you reading of me?

Just..curious. I imagine you're as weird as anyone. My luck is great, in that regard. I attract them, like shoelaces.

*grin*

H

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heatherlovatt In reply to heatherlovatt [2004-11-07 22:29:41 +0000 UTC]

True. *sigh* I know it.

And you do too. I think that's why, unfortunately, I think you're rather neat. *grin*

Consider it a compliment and just back away. *laugh*

Heather, confering with thieves and bandits last night and today. I just can't seem to stay out of trouble, in that realm. Hm. Must be my theatre background, in some weird and wonderful way.

Which comes first: me, putting up with too many assholes, or, rebounding into the realms of..hm..what would we call these people? Not sure.

Both mentally ill, in some way. Yet, some of the most straight forward and refreshing gentlemen I've met in a long while. Why is that? *grin*

Have fun in Arizona. I almost moved there. Longer story. Part of the nightmare. Wait for the movie to come out. Less brain strain. I moved on from that world. I lived.

I live. Most merely exist. That is all.

And check out Dave. I'm serious. He's an asshole as males go, but he's a knight from days of old when it comes to solving your Internet problems. I have no clue what he is up to, these days (nor, am I interested, to be real honest) but whenever someone mentioned looking for a Braveheart (not a Bravenet, Christ!) to work their dials, I think on Dave.

Funny that.

H

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xam In reply to heatherlovatt [2004-11-06 18:09:27 +0000 UTC]

whilst highly risky i dont think you should change your basic tactics in life.

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stan90068 [2004-09-22 20:10:05 +0000 UTC]

So are you in Wyoming now?

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xam In reply to stan90068 [2004-09-22 21:55:31 +0000 UTC]

some times i feel like i never left.

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inlezorn [2004-07-22 02:14:57 +0000 UTC]

I know I have looked at this piece before and I really thought I commented but obviously I didn't, this piece gives me a great sense of deja vu and makes me feel like we have talked before about this piece and this is a very strange feeling and I can't explain it and I can't stop staring at all the yous and the one that moves me the most is the you sitting on the bed because you are hunched over and appear defeated and all but one other you has their back to you or is looking away as if they can't be bothered by your burden and the only one looking seems to be reaching out to you, I could easily get lost in this image

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xam In reply to inlezorn [2004-07-27 08:39:17 +0000 UTC]

maybe they're doing for him what he can't for himself. maybe he isn't ready to look out yet..

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daveymonster [2004-03-18 19:25:43 +0000 UTC]

this is fucking awesome.
You make this shot so alive but all the movement that is going on.


This is truly something I want hanging on my wall.

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xam In reply to daveymonster [2004-03-18 19:57:57 +0000 UTC]

wow, thanks. you are too kind! this was a pretty interesting day, and the moods i went thru, well i wanted to catch them all... originally it was going to be a series of images in a line. but this seemed to really sum up what was happening...

i was waiting for a plane... i was going somewhere new. nothing was ever the same.

thanks again!

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daveymonster In reply to xam [2004-03-18 22:14:28 +0000 UTC]

I really like it.

Waiting for a plane sucks.

I went somewhere new myself last year september.
Nothing will ever be the same again, in a bad way

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xam In reply to daveymonster [2004-03-18 22:23:17 +0000 UTC]

you've not found the lesson in the experience then... the universe is a harsh mother, full of icy bone finger love, she runs them thru our hair... it hurts when she loves us...

but calm seas never made good sailors...

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daveymonster In reply to xam [2004-03-18 22:40:38 +0000 UTC]

I hear ya

I changed alot after the whole incident.
here is the whole story if your intressted [link]

I have to say and so does my ex.
that I changed for the good out of it.

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nikitas [2003-07-03 11:15:44 +0000 UTC]

can you see from your window my sea?

thank you for visiting my link
I think that is your best picture
something is crying inside me

take care

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aror [2003-06-11 15:12:36 +0000 UTC]

Nice work. The subdued mood understates the trick photography. Along with the description it's quite personal...you can actually sit and think in a hotel room when you could be watching The Price Is Right re-runs?

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madhatter [2003-05-24 18:25:09 +0000 UTC]

dam cool picture I like the spookyness over it that you made all three of you transparent... nicynice

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showna [2003-05-23 14:16:00 +0000 UTC]

~wow~ I'm very impressed... the image itself is awesome when you read the description that goes along with it, I love how you described what you were feeling. Awesome piece.

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mode2 [2003-05-20 04:27:26 +0000 UTC]

This looks great. I hope one day to be able to do something similar to this.
I just love the whole idea of making mirror images of oneself and adjusting them in different positions. Keep up the great work!!


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31uc1d [2003-05-17 23:49:49 +0000 UTC]

wow, that is awesome, i really like the different positions

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narang99 [2003-05-15 12:22:20 +0000 UTC]

so much expressed in a frame...
i love the light...
like somthing to go to..

hope....

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knottyboy [2003-05-15 04:35:16 +0000 UTC]

Dammit! Why can't I see? Why won't my eyes open and read your face.

It's all fun and games till someone loses an eye....

W

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ls-dark [2003-05-13 11:20:17 +0000 UTC]

nice shot..i like the effects used! nice description aswell!

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shockwire [2003-05-12 23:36:37 +0000 UTC]

Wow, I love this effect! It gives me the whole looking at your self through a mirror while at the same time being on the other side of it feel.
I think I'm going to go let my brain out for a walk while it churns and gurgles away.

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devilicious [2003-05-12 20:06:52 +0000 UTC]

i like this!!! your execution came out nicely - and i love that in addition to the three positions you blurred some - it helps with the movement...

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gensanity [2003-05-12 20:06:35 +0000 UTC]

Awesome work here. Thinking hard

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xneverxagianx [2003-05-12 19:29:28 +0000 UTC]

i really like this shot, nasty effects and great postions there in..love it good job...thanks for the comment also!

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tamaralance [2003-05-12 16:44:58 +0000 UTC]

Interesting concept. The picture was done well. It lends a sort of dreamy feeling to it. Like something out of a movie. I like what you wrote here also. Makes a lot of sense. I was not an only child... but I was raised like one since my youngest sister had moved out long before I was born. I know very much how it is to never be alone... and yet you are.

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dragonite [2003-05-12 16:15:17 +0000 UTC]

very unique concept of taking photos
and very effective too
very nice

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wingsofgrace [2003-05-11 11:50:25 +0000 UTC]

I love this shot and love your description even more. I am a gemini And an only child, try to understand that mess! lol I like how the standing you seems transparent in the light.. very cool effect.

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pur9e [2003-05-11 04:18:33 +0000 UTC]

things this reminds me of:
fight club.
suicide.
stakeouts.
the bucket full of motel keys my father accumulated over his years as a director of marketing for a software firm.

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circuit [2003-05-10 22:52:31 +0000 UTC]

freaking awesome. i love this site.

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phono-graphik [2003-05-10 20:44:42 +0000 UTC]

Yo Xam, I love this picture. It's a great concept for a self portrait. Such wonderful use of advanced film techniques. I have no idea how you did this and that's probably what captivates me about it. I don't think anything like this is possible with digital. But if it is I'd love to know how.
Great job.

MikeB.

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ranger99 [2003-05-10 07:17:23 +0000 UTC]

I like this image, but even more so, I love the story behind it. I was an only child, as well, and I know exactly what you mean. I'm never alone. I'm always there with me.

Oh, and you get bonus points. You quoted one of my favorite songs still to this day. New Order "World."

Yep. That's right. You earned a +fav.

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shadymilkman [2003-05-10 02:01:30 +0000 UTC]

i love the effect on this, and the bar on the side, its great, you are really good

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my-frailty [2003-05-09 02:40:51 +0000 UTC]

ooo, greatness. I especialy like the one thats turned to the window and turned away from it at the same time. It feels like I'm wartching a movie.

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gootchy [2003-05-09 02:14:52 +0000 UTC]

Cool shot! Nice effect with all the different positions in one picture.

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